Dec19
“ You’re the one that I want so bad. You don’t want me. But that doesn’t mean you have to be weird. I know that now I’m the one being weird but its because I can’t handle you not ever really talking to me again. I hate not being able to handle anything. I want everything to be normal. Like it was before you told me in words that you didn’t like me. But I want it back. Its not fair. I want it back. Please, I want it back. I want only you and I know you don’t want me but I’d be okay with that if you’d be the same with me again. I read the text messages and make myself cry every night. I want it all back. I don’t want to cry over you. A girl is like this over a guy she loves…but I don’t love you…I can’t love you when I haven’t talked to you in forever…or really ever gone out with you…or had a special mutal connection with you…and I don’t know even know why I like you…but I do. My tears show it every night…do I love you?
I can’t. ”
Dec18
“

-when you say “but we can still be friends”, what the hell were you suggesting? we werent even dating. you werent my boyf, and you had no right to say something that made it sound like you were when CLEARLY you were not. FUCK YOU
-that actually really bothers me
-way to tell your friend “she has a crush on me”. extra FUCK YOU for that
-dont say “age is just a number” and then say it wont work because youre “too old”. FUCK YOU
-the worst part is, you make me feel not good enough, and i dont deserve to feel that way. its going to take a while to stop feeling it. FUCK YOU
-you shouldve explained yourself better because i was left trying to figure out the pieces of your cryptic speak and that is driving me fucking nuts FUCK YOU (in regards to your whole “id rather be in a relationship that would end in marriage than a breakup”) (FUCK YOU)
-you have my scarf and one of my fav books FUCK YOU
-ok, so that last one was just anger overload, the scarf i kindof gave to you, but the book you better FUCKING GIVE BACK
-also, i was looking forward to going to the new art gallery with you (your idea, but of course you wouldnt have remembered anyways), watching love actually (also your idea), being happy this christmas with you. fuck you.

-my hatred for youinparticular is harbouring and i almost dont want to be friends anymore

”
Dec18
“ Despite all my efforts to let you know I’m living a beautiful life without you - I’ve yet to find anything as beautiful as you and the way we were. ”
Dec17
“ So, every time we fight, you tell me its always me who starts it. If only you were in my spot, you would understand. IT’S NOT ME. It freaking kills me, and the words you say, and how you say it. “Oh, I’m always here for you!” Yeah right. Sometimes you should talk to me, instead of fighting, or “lovey dub” stuff. ”
Dec17
“ i am so sick and tired of having to deal with you. i have never in my life let someone treat me the way that you treat me. i only deal with you because im married to your brother. i do it for him and him alone. you are a selfish bitch who needs to grow the fuck up, seriously. how old are you? youre 27 and you act like a 9 year old. stop pulling suicide stunts. stop being an attention whore. stop hurting me. blog about me all you want on the internet. come into my home and trash it. ruin my thanksgiving. fuck with me one more time and i swear to god my words wont be left unsaid one day longer and i will never, ever deal with you again. ”
Dec16
“ Loving you. I thought it would be easy. You being there, me being here, miles apart, with oceans that lies there between us. It’s almost impossible for you and me to be really something. But something inside of me still hopes for what could be, what would be, and what is. I have always loved you. Always. From that moment that we began to have feelings for each other, no matter how young we we’re back then, it never changed. In fact it grew up with me, through time. I don’t know what else to do, but to go there and be with you. I’ll risk everything, everything for you. For us. I know there’s something there for me, I’m not sure, but I think there is, I hope there is. This love is just too much for me to handle, too much to ignore. Hopefully you won’t ignore what I feel, I hope I’m still there. If I ever did cause you any pain, believe me, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it to happen. And if it did happen, it was for the best, I grew up, you grew up, we both matured to what we are now. And if you choose me, this situation, this glitch of distance… I’m confident that we would make it. Because you and I? I believe that we’re made for each other, I believe that we’re supposed to be together. We have what it takes for us to work. I love you… Always have… and probably… always will… ”
Dec16
“

I miss our friendship. I miss talking to you on the phone, texting, and just having you there to listen to me when I’m having a bad day. I miss you giving me advice on everything, and you saying you loved me everyday. I miss having you as my best friend.
Apparently, I’m the one who screwed up in this friendship, and I just wish you’d tell me how. I’d like to talk to you once more about what happened, but I have a feeling that you’ve moved on without me, and now I’m drowning. Everyday I think about it and it just makes life harder. Hopefully, one day you’ll realize that I’m seriously trying to get our friendship back into place, but until then I guess I’ll just have to try and move on because I don’t think you want anything to do with me anymore.

—You don’t know this, but you broke my heart.
I’m sorry.

”
Dec15
“ Even if it was just one night, and even though you and I both weren’t sober, just having a conversation with you meant more to me than you’ll ever know. ”
Dec15
“ I don’t get how it’s always my fault. Look at what I’m doing? Look at what you’re doing. How can I trust you when you break a promise and then act like nothings happened? You say you’ve changed for the better, but I think it was for the worst. ”
Dec14
“ I’ve tried to explain this to you before, but you never listen. I gave you my heart, and i thought you gave me yours. But really, you just took mine and kept it under lock and key, while yours was hidden somewhere out of my reach. Now that you left, i feel, you took my heart with you and refuse to return it, knowing i won’t be complete without it. Thus, giving me a reason to never be complete without you. ”
Dec14
“ This is easy for you. Liking her, hurting me. Fully knowing i cry almost every night because i lost you, but not saying anything about it, not even a simple ‘sorry.’ I have loved from almost the moment we met, and if i knew then you were going to hurt me like this, i wouldn’t have let myself fall so hard. ”
Dec13
“ Four years we were best friends. Four years you hurt me and pissed me off without me saying a word. This time I took a stand and you didn’t like it. We’re not friends anymore and I haven’t felt a single drop of regret. And the fact that you think this entire thing is because of him, the fact that you don’t like me “because we like the same guy” is just hilarious to me. You had no problem with me until I had one with you. So stfu. I’m glad you’re out of my life. We’re done. And I’m so, so happy about this. ”
Dec13
“ i am not in love with you. but rather my high school sweetheart.
somethings are bigger than i am ”
Dec12
“ i wish you would give me a chance to like you; love you even, one day perhaps. ”
Dec12
“ I fucking miss you Muhammad Haider Bin Mail. )’: I wish everything would be as how it was. Then I can go back to you. I need you so badly. )’: I love you. ”