May19
“ If someone had told me a long time ago that you would be here now, I might not have ever cried about anything, because I can see now how everything pointed to you. I had never even allowed myself to dream that someone could be as beautiful, as soul-deep, as Everything as you are. & not just exist — but love me. When I think that someone as amazing as you actually writes poetry to me — o! When I think that I even cross your lovely mind, I am so amazed, so astonished. I can’t believe there are boys like you in the world who still have the balls to say “i’d marry you,” who still have the balls to say “you are gorgeous,” who still have the balls to call a girl’s name. Sometimes I can’t sleep or eat or anything because I am so happy & giddy. I never ever thought anyone could ever heal my heart after him. But with you, he’s even redundant. He was a mean scam, & you are the real thing.
I think I love you. ”