Jun29
“ I never told you this and I probably never will, but it still hurts… you know, how I asked you out and you said yes when you should have said no. I still think about it and how much effort it took for me to do it. You know how awkward and how nervous I am about the simplest things. You said yes and a couple days later you retracted your answer to switch it to a no. I didn’t understand why at the time, but now I do. Though there are so many things that attract me to you and make me love you (yes I said love) there are twice as many things that I loath and annoy me about you and for you I bet it’s the same about me. We still converse every single day, text throughout the day, chill on the occasional night and when I look at you it’s like I’ve been kicked me in the balls. My stomach sinks, my knees shake and I feel the same way I did before and after you shattered my heart. Somehow, I get the feeling you know I still like you, but I also have the feeling that you know I can’t stand you at times, but I still grit my teeth and force out a smile because you’ve become such an intricate part of my life. I don’t know where I place on your list of important people, but you place pretty high on my list even if you hurt me more than once. ”
